Archive | July, 2008

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

31 Jul

Holy crap. The new teaser trailer just came out, and I’m so FLIPPING EXCITED!

Why does November 21st have to be so far away???

❤ Abby

New video for “Impatience”

28 Jul

WAS + Werewolves = AWESOME. :] :] :]

❤ Abby

This week’s been a little better

28 Jul

To be honest, there isn’t that much to write about, but I didn’t want to leave you hanging for more than a week, just to make sure that I hadn’t forgotten about my blog.

That would be bad.

Oh, well…I did go see Laura on thursday at Mt. Rainier, which was fun. We drove for about 4 hours that day total, but I missed Laura. And I hadn’t been to Mt. Rainier in about 8 years.

Wow, I really don’t feel that inspired right now. I have homework to do, and I just got back from work, and it was a LONG DAY. Plus, I didn’t sleep very long last night. I kept waking up.

I promise I’ll write more. Some other time.

❤ Abby

It’s been a week.

21 Jul

And a difficult week at that.

You know what I said last week about the fucked up karma. It is fucked up. And it fucked up big time this week. It did exactly what I didn’t want it to do, and it’s the saddest thing that’s happened in a long time.

Even though I didn’t know you that well, I’ll still miss you. You were the only girl at the apartment when I visited. Now it’s going to be me and all the testosterone. I wished that we could have known each other better, because from what he told me, you were a pretty cool person.

I’d like for him to talk to me about it, but I know he doesn’t want to talk about it at all.

I realize now more than ever that I’m so lucky to be where I am, and who I am. No matter my disease. No matter how many meds I have to take a day. No matter my trips to Seattle to see the doctor. I’m here.

I’m here.

❤ Abby

Revelations

14 Jul

And no, this doesn’t have to do with the Bible. Come on, you know me.

But this does have to do with a higher power. A higher power that controls the universe, and everything in it.

Fate.

Fate has brought me to where I am today, and I’m not a religious person, but I believe in fate wholeheartedly. Why? I just realized something yesterday…well, actually today, since it was about 2 in the morning when i realized it. I was checking my mom’s email yesterday about my cousin’s itinerary for when she comes and visits in August, and I found an email that she got from Derek a few days ago. It was in response to an email that she sent him just over a year ago when I graduated. It basically told the story of when we moved into this house, and how we came to stay here, after moving in when Libby was ten days old. Mom and Dad didn’t expect to stay in this house for 16 or more years. And then Mom told Derek that she came to realize something–that fate brought us here. The reason, that mom said, that was stayed here was so that I could be apart of Outlook and meet Derek. She ended the email with “Thank you for being what she loved about high school.”

She’s right. I believe that we stayed in this house, in this annoying town of ours, so that we could meet all the wonderful people that we have, and so that I could be apart of the greatest thing I’ve ever accomplished in my short 19-year life so far. High school alone did not change my life. Outlook changed my life. Without it, I don’t know where I’d be right now. I don’t even know if I would have been motivated enough to go to college.

Derek emailed mom back the other day saying “Just so you know, I will keep this email forever.” And it almost brought years to my eyes thinking about how relevant that email is now, still, and how it will be forever.

Everything happens for a reason, I say, and today, especially, it dawned on me.

As Ryan and I were falling asleep at like…3 am, we stayed up late talking, I thought about my time at St. Martins, and how not fulfilling it was. When I had my meltdown in October, I told myself, “I don’t belong here. I don’t belong here.” I wanted to leave. I wanted to quit right then and there and start over, but I stuck it out through the whole year, with all the dorm drama, all the ridiculous teachers, and rapist on the loose, and the dozens of hypocritical Catholic drunk sluts.

Ryan helped me realize that I stayed there for the whole year so that we could be together. We didn’t happen until literally the last 2 weeks of school. If I would have left, I guarantee that I would still be single, stuck working at Petco, taking more than one class at TCC right now, and unhappy.

But I went through all the unhappiness this year so I could be happy now, which I am. Very happy.

I also believe in karma, and that when you do something good, something good will come back at you. But sometimes, karma is fucked up as well. I hope it isn’t so fucked up that it does something so terrible that I don’t even want to divulge into it, it just makes me too sad to think about it.

I should go. I think I’ve said enough for today. I’m incredibly tired right now, because, like I said, we didn’t go to sleep until 3 am.

❤ Abby

I really was just bitter

12 Jul

I don’t want to sound like I’m being a cop out, but I guess I should just say it now…

I didn’t mean everything I said 3 blogs ago, the one titled “Not to sound bitter or anything.” I was bitter and hostile and jealous. I was jealous that Nick gets to do everything I want to do. I kinda felt the exact same way that I did in high school, comparing the Apple Leaf to the Outlook, but I shouldn’t dwell on the past.

Nick, you’re lucky, and I wished that I had the opportunities that you have. I wish that I had the chance to get heard on a larger scale, but this is what I have, and I try to use it as strategically as I can.

But just to keep my own dignity, I still think that our journalistic abilities are equally strong. The only thing that I don’t have going for me is my location. Gig Harbor doesn’t really have a lot of opportunities.

Sorry for calling you a d-bag.

❤ Abby

A vid from wednesday’s show.

12 Jul

I didn’t shoot this vid, because I was stupid enough not to bring any camera but my phone. I’m a dumbass. But this is my favorite We Are Scientists song. And I was basically in the same line of sight as the guy who recorded this, but a little bit closer.

You can go to this person’s Youtube from the link at the end of the video and check out some of their other songs (i.e. Chick Lit, This Scene is Dead, Tonight, etc.)

❤ Abby